Karin Jurschick talks about her film IT SHOULD HAVE BEEN NICE AFTER THAT:
There’s a scene in the film where a child wishes that God would make a movie, a movie that told the ‘truth’. This was a childhood wish of my own. The desire to give shape to the invisible war that I saw going on between my parents. It was an attempt to make that difficult situation into something productive by giving it a form that could be communicated to others. What I was going through (and that many other families were also experiencing) was not available anywhere in words or images (and in retrospect, you weren’t supposed to talk about those things in the first place). That is also what my mother, ‘the woman’ in the movie, does in her own way. Suicide documents and makes public the devastation to the physical self that one has endured.
Once I realized that God doesn’t make films, and that ‘the’ truth can’t be shown, I tried to find a form that would do justice to the different versions of the truth found in this family history. From the beginning I was intrigued what the war from the West, and the comic books I had dreamt about as a kid, had to do with the invisible war between my parents and the historical wars that both of them lived through. Both of my parents grew up and learned about life during wartime.
Many years later I went inside the home that my mother and I lived in. My father still lives there. It felt very oppressive, like a time warp, a leap into the past. A friend had advised me to take along a camera and I took her advice. My father was interested in the camera as a technical instrument interested my father, he respected it. The camera helped to create a different kind of plane, a space outside of the existing father-daughter structure where we could ‘talk about her’ - in both senses of the word. Perhaps that is why, when faced with the decision to either making a film from the material we had shot, or to put it into the box with the rest of the “family photos”, he agreed to the film.
I have often been asked whether I’ve found a sense of reconciliation since making this movie. The word ‘reconciliation’ sounds overly harmonizing but I do see my father as a far more complex person than I have in the past. And we have a relationship that has endured even after work on the film ended.
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